i'm afraid of happiness.

i'm afraid of fufillment. i'm afraid of creation. i'm afraid of the self. i'm afraid of autonomy. i'm afraid of being looked at. i'm afraid of identity. i'm afraid of stories. i'm afraid of meaning. i'm afraid of purpose. i'm afraid of having a life i love. i'm afraid of eyes. i'm afraid of being touched. i'm afraid of traveling. i'm afraid of moving. i'm afraid of looking. i'm afraid of choices.

i'm afraid of people who are allowed to live their own lives.