today is going to be a beautiful day

i woke up today at 7 in the morning, when i could have slept in. my schedule allowed for it.

i dunno why.

this happens a lot. when i could do something, i have the opportunity to do something and there is so much time for me to do something like that. or anything. lots of things.

and then i don't. it's like i'm always waiting for something.

pop pop pop pop

i don't know what it is.

sometimes it's waiting for the time to be safe, sometimes it's waiting for myself to feel motivated enough to get up.

it's nothing more times than not.