sometimes i say things that contradict what i've said before.

i don't know why i do it. it's probably a result of the thoughts crashing together in my head.

it's kind of like dementia i think.

not really. but it feels like it.

my head constantly feels empty and full at the same time. like there's moments where there's only one or two voices yelling from far away, but they echo so much it feels like thousands. or it is thousands of voices, really really close. really really loud.

it's difficult to discren what they say. i can never really hear what they say, but i can sure as hell feel it.